suffering

is suffering from many many things..
is crying hard now..
i really like wan to die now..
is really meaningless at here..
my heart is damn pain..
i need my dear..
where are you..?
he is very busy and i not dare to find him..
but i really need him at this moment..
dun tell him if u read my blog..

i need to be more independent...
cannot depend on fren too much..
even though they dun wan take care of me i still can take care myself..
but when only i can do it..?
i really hate the situation now..
i just dun wan to be so lonely here..
cannot..?

tat is ur fate..
no one can change it..

wish tat i can go home now..
kampar is a scary place for me now..
i hate alone n lonely...
i hate it so much..
no one can understand my feelings now..