sleepless

im here again..
3rd post for today..
i cant fall asleep...
something is keep on n cant stop...
actually i gt nt much to say..
but i have ntg to do oso..
wat should i do now..?
my heart really feel pain..
i feel helpless..
wordless too..
how much i love him...
i cant descibe..
dunno how to put my love to him in few words..
even i love him..
is oso not enough..
although im not always tell u tat i love u face to face..
but i do love u with my heart..
everytime argue with u is like in the hell..
the level of suffer..
cant describe as well..
no one is perfect in this world..
n i just have more 'que dian' than others..
i admit..
im not a good person..
not a good girlfren..
not a good fren...
even not a good daughter too..
but tat is real me..
i can change..
trying to change too..
he had gave me many chances..
everytime oso is my fault..
i shouldn't simply say thing without use the brain..
i really feel regret..
but word is out..
and i dunno wat to do..
i type so many words here..
but i dunno wat im typing..
i really dunno wat to do..
to let him call me bac dear..
i hope he can forgive me again..
sorry yoong jen...i am sorry..